A story that came in mind when I listened to Narnia soundtrack

One day, a beggar boy who wandered around the market to search for chance to steal food was caught by a soldier. He was so afraid and struggled to get away, but the soldier grabbed him tightly and said, 'Come, the King commanded me to bring you back, you are His lost and found son.'

The beggar boy said, 'No, my father is waiting for me at home. He will whip me if I cannot find any food back home for him. And he will starve me again tonight if I cannot offer up as much food as the rest of my sibling.'

The soldier said, 'Do you not remember? Two days ago, you went and took water from the well for a young man.'

The beggar boy said, 'Yes, I remembered he asked if I believe that he will give me the living water. I said I believe but I haven't seen him until now.'

The soldier said, 'Now he is fulfilling his promise. He is our crowned Prince Taleh. He went back to the King and said he found his brother, that is you. The King has prepared a feast at the palace to welcome you home and a ceremony to crown you as Prince.'

The beggar boy replied joyfully, 'Does this mean that I will get to have a whole new life?'

The soldier said, 'Of course, back to the palace later, you will be even greater than me in this kingdom.'

The beggar boy happily followed the soldier back to the palace.

The King saw the boy and hurried to him. He took him up to His shoulder and kissed him and said, 'This is my lost and found son, my beloved son.'

They washed the dirt away from the boy using water during the ceremony and crowned him as Prince Tzon Marito and he received the sword of Emet from the King.

Everyday, Prince Tzon Marito sang Tahilin which was the tradition of the Kingdom and learned from Prince Taleh about the attitude of a prince should have.

But each day passed by, even tough the King loved Prince Tzon Marito very much and gave whatever he asked, Prince Tzon Marito began to feel bored.

One day, he sneaked out of the palace to play. His previous sibling saw him and wanted to stone him. He initially was scared and tried to run away.

But then he stopped and thought that he was a Prince, what fear should he have, if anyone would try to hurt him, his father, the King will send an army to rescue him.

The father who whipped him before saw his courage because of the King and became angry. But immediately he calmed down and thought of setting the Prince up.

'How great is it your father, the King? I'm the one who supposed to be your father. Come back to me, son and all my lands and wealth I will give to you for these had been given by the King in a deal He made with my ancestors long ago.' said the wicked father.

'No, I do not trust in you for the trees in your garden bear spoiled fruit and your land grows weeds.' Prince Tzon Marito answered.

The wicked father would not stop and continued to say, 'You are my adopted son long ago. Well, since you found your real father, I wished to marry to you my daughter, Nasah but you must come back and stay with me. Freed yourself from the palace and the rules you must follow in the palace.'

Nasah was a very beautiful girl and Prince Tzon Marito couldn't help to think of Nasah day and night even after he was crowned prince.

Then he thought again, even tough he was happy in the palace but Prince Taleh was a too perfect man for him to follow.

So, he went back to the palace and asked the King to gave him what belongs to him and he was leaving!

The King cried and said, 'My son, one day you shall come back.'

Prince Tzon Marito went to the wicked father with his wealth and married Nasah.

But the wicked father wasn't satisfied. Because he saw the Prince missing the King after moving out. So, he told Nasah his plan.

Nasah came to Prince Tzon Marito and said, 'My Prince and my husband, if you have loved me, you should fulfill any wish I want, right?'

Prince Tzon Marito said softly, 'My dear, any wish you want.'

Nasah said, 'Then, I wanted you to go back to your father, the King, pretended that you are broke. He will shall come and hug you, by the time He hugs you, you shall kill Him with the sword of Emet."

Prince Tzon Marito was shocked with the wish but he had promised Nasah.

He came to palace to find the King, dressed in shabby, according to the plan.

The King heard that he came back and rushed out exactly to hug him.

He said, 'My son, you had came back to me. My servants, I commanded you to go and take new robe and shoes for my son for the Prince is back.'

Prince Tzon Marito said, 'Father, I had left You. I had no right to be prince again.'

The King said, 'My son, I will never forsake you until the day of harvest.'

Prince Tzon Marito was filled with regret for seeing that the King loved him so much. He tried to kill himself with the sword of Emet but stopped by Prince Taleh. Prince Taleh told him that, 'You had promised to take my living water. You shall not break it.'

Prince Tzon Marito realised that he was trapped by the wicked father all these while and thus killed Nasah with the sword of Emet by himself and came back to the Father.

The King had the Prince to marry the most beautiful girl in the Kingdom called 'Chen'.

The Prince was glad that he made the right decision and the King commanded him to go out and take other brothers home.

Everything happens for a reason Part I

Before I started, let me share what God has for me today through facebook. There is this interesting application on fb, 'God wants you to know' which gives me most of the inspiration of the day. And sometimes, it pulled me up just the time I fall. At times where I am joyful, it comes out as a lesson or just the words I should appreciate. I don't know what's the time region it uses, but often I will receive message from God each day in the evening.

"Rachel Little, on this day God wants you to know

that all is well. What could you not accept, if you but knew that everything that happens, all events, past, present, and to come, are gently planned by One Whose only purpose is your good?"

And these are exactly what can be put into this blog that I foreplanned to write.

Yay, who knows I will fail?

Yay, who knows I carry so many secrets with me?

And who knows I am always sad about myself?

Him.

I cried just now in the Christian Fellowship during praise and worship. Because as I sang along, I felt so touched with God grace.

What makes Him to choose me?

What makes Him to save a wretch like me?

Is there anything special in this child that caught His attention? Is it because only Him sees the brighter side and the cuter side of me? Is it because only Him can forgive what I did? Only Him is love?

I actually has a testimony to share but because of the time reason, I save it first.

But remember, this is what I get from God, everything happens for a reason. =)

Sharingggggg!!!! Pls put on your earphone before clicking the link!!!

心灵点滴

有个简短的问题，我斟酌了很久，我想这也会难倒很多人。因为是没有一个答案的。有些人或许会回答不出个所以然来。嗯，也别卖关子了。问题如下：

为什么不是每个人都对我好；我为什么不是对每个人都好？

我是个基督徒。我现在写着我自己，当然无可避免要先说到爱。

上 帝说，“爱是永不止息。” 但我的爱，在别人给我脸色看时，或者说话的语气提高了，抑或直接踩到我的头上来，这份爱就沉到了杯底了。渐渐的，我发现，我自己也很自私。虽说，人有所 求，我鲜少推搪，但是我是要求着别人付出，我方能行动。他们需要给我爱，我才能去爱他们。我欠缺了什么呢？饶恕。

上帝说，“人家打你的左脸，把右脸也反过来给他再打。这样的response不是违反了正常的Motor System?? 虽然我常向人强调，这是我们应做的，因为饶恕很重要，饶恕才能体现爱，而神就是爱。

但是，父啊，这杯似乎有点难。

当 初，Form 5那年我有了自杀倾向。我想这世界太恐怖了，你争我夺，朋友间有永无止境的背叛、出卖、嫉妒，比一个不相熟的人还恨! 妈妈当时偏疼弟弟，我怨她，她却告诉我这世上从来没有’公平’这两个字。所以我对前景彻底失望，因我看到了社会的腐败，就算在一间小小的学校已经是是非连连。既然这样，我 们以前学的那什么礼、义、廉、耻，我看都该烧掉了。凡是对自己不利的东西，而自对旁人有利的，千万不能去做，因为你将会是世上最蠢的那一个。记得！

但 是，在挣扎的边缘，我看见了爱。我看到一个人，他行事跟这个世界完全颠倒。难道他忘了，这个生存的基本法则，对旁人有利的，而对自己无利的事千万不能去 做。但是他却为别人的罪钉死了。江湖兄弟讲义气尚且替大哥坐牢，但也是要讲求条件，不过是绝对不会去为别人受死刑的。在那十架上，我看到了非常奇妙的东 西。他给了我盼望。他这两千年前的的行为告诉着我说，‘自扫门前雪’、‘笑里藏刀再在你背后插一刀’这些事都不是这个世界的定律。因为他胜过了，他所做的 证明了爱是存在的。

他说我这里有爱，爸爸妈妈不爱你；不要紧，爷爷奶奶讨厌你；不要紧，朋友排斥你；没关系，因为我爱你。

当我接触圣经是，我更是惊心动魄。那本书好像一个父亲写了封信来安慰他受伤的孩子。

“忧伤痛悔的心，我必不轻看。

我必领你们到生命水的泉源 我也必 擦去你们一切的眼泪。’

‘只是我告诉你们，要爱你们的仇敌。为那逼迫你们的祷告。 这样，就可以作你们天父的儿子。因为他叫日头照好人，也照歹人，降雨给义人，也给不义的人。 你们若单爱那爱你们的人。有什么赏赐呢？’

‘只是我告诉你们，不要与恶人作对。有人打你的右脸，连左脸也转过来由他打。有人想要告你，要拿你的里衣，连外衣也由他拿去。 有人强逼你走一里路，你就同他走二里。 有求你的，就给他。有向你借贷的，不可推辞。’

‘你施舍的时候，不要叫左手知道右手所作的。要叫你施舍的事行在暗中，你父在暗中察看，必然报答你。’

‘你们不要论断人，免得你们被论断。 因为你们怎样论断人，也必怎样被论断。’

‘你们祈求，就给你们。寻找，就寻见。叩门，就给你们开门。 因为凡祈求的，就得着。寻找的，就寻见。叩门的，就给他开门。’

‘所以无论何事，你们愿意人怎样待你们，你们也要怎样待人。’

这些经文有力地在敲打我的心，并告诉我，幽暗的世界过去了，因为我看见了光明。

我的生活就这样转变了。我的心门打开了。我开始懂得去抱一个陌生人，然后对他说，‘耶稣爱你’。因为我感受到了那份爱，我想告诉别人，我想让别人及有可能像我这样想的也知道。

不过，某些事情发生了。考完试我去工作，开始疏远了上帝，亲近了金钱。我有时太累，索性不去教会，下午就溜出去逛街看戏。

然而，因为上帝的慈爱，把我带到了Matrik，让我再一次的依靠他，转向他，知道没有上帝，我不行！

Matrik 后，我被一些宗教团体蒙骗，加上发生了意外，我额头上留下了疤痕。这次的意外非同小可，不是因为我害怕或者因为我破相了，而是我呆掉了。原来基督徒也有偏 离的，尽管圣经已警示了我们许多次，但是我从未认真地去辨别是非。这种可怖的转变让我一时无法适应。我好像借着头上这一刮，从一个噩梦醒过来。

很快的，我才疗养一个月，就得升上大学。

我 变了。我不知如何做人。我已经不懂得去关怀人，因为我意识到世界有许多的诡诈。我的警觉性拉高。别人说的话或做的我不同意时，我也不知该怎么跟人家沟 通。我不懂，说真的。人家利用我，我也只好沉默。我变得很安静、很安静。我封闭了自己。但是，同时我觉得好寂寞、好寂寞，看见人家一群朋友谈天说地、游山 玩水，为什么我就不能如此，为什么我却永远是角落那个不起眼的。 我因此颓废了。

开始我常安慰自己，别怕，

上帝说：我给你们的不是胆怯的心而是刚强仁爱谨守的心。

他也说：世界所以先恨我，才恨你们。

不过，今晚，我感触良多。之前我常安慰自己世界所以先恨上帝，才恨我。我却忽略了，爱是永不止息，爱能遮掩一切过错。

有个朋友说我长得像小丑。我婉转地回答她，‘Oh my God, 你怎么可以这么说？’

岂知她不放过我还拉高声音说，‘Oh my God, where's your God?'

说真的，这句话确实让我怒火中烧。

但 是这一次我明白了。我不该怪她。反而，我该反省自己。我想，可能不止她一人会这样问我，或许有更多人也心存这个疑问。说真的，在这里区区两个月的生活，我 有活出上帝来吗？我心志散漫，喜欢疏远自己，更别说去关怀人。办事不利之余还常说一些冷场的无聊话。这都是我的面具。我希望人们把我看成是一个不认真的 人，因为我害怕掏出自己的心去交一个真心朋友。我害怕欺诈、出卖。但是，

上帝说：你要心里火热，要爱人如已 。

喜乐的心乃是良药，忧伤的灵使骨枯干。

最重要的是，

要忘记背后，努力面前，向着标杆直跑。

我想，

是时候解铃了。=)

星语心愿

我要控制我自己 不会让谁看见我哭泣 装作我不关心你 不愿想起你 怪自己没勇气 心痛得无法呼吸 找不到你留下的痕迹 眼睁睁的看着你 却无能为力 任你消失在世界的尽头 找不到坚强的理由 再也感觉不到你的温柔 告诉我星空在哪头 那里是否有尽头 心痛得无法呼吸 找不到昨天留下的痕迹 眼睁睁地看着你 却无能为力 任你消失在世界的尽头 找不到坚强的理由 再也感觉不到你的温柔 告诉我星空在哪头 那里是否有尽头 就向流星许个心愿 让你知道—— 我爱你

Mission to Mars

Have you seen the movie, 'Mission to Mars'?

It was a horrible scene to me, 10 years ago, when I saw all those astronauts being torn apart by a catastropic wind. eeewww and I remembered it clearly as it was my brother's favourite movie. He forced my parents to bought the CD as soon as they went out of the cinema. What a spoiled brat! [Bahahaha...]

Yea, truly, they had been watching a lot of movies in the cinema together while I stayed with my grandparents...,Titanic la, Mission to Mars la and many more which I didn't know the name as I wasn't there!!!

But okay la, I was kindy enuf lerr...when I chose to stay with grandma once Dad asked me out with them. As I dun wan grandma to be alone at home. See? xDD

aNYWAY, recently when I'm back home, you know what Mom said to me? I shouldn't just go and tease my sister who often texted a guy she knew in church.

then here came, Mom said to me, 'You're 19. So just go after which ever guy you like. Bring one back! But of course a Christian la.'

It would be like Mission to Mars!

Cuz men live on Mars, women lived on Venus.

Of course that's a joke la. Adam and Eve both came from Earth.

I just wished to tell Mom, 'I'm a bad astronaut and a bad friend too. ;('

I loved to escape alone with my spaceship and I knew by that way, I would never pluck the star I wanted.

Aizz...Twinkle, twinkle little star...how I wonder what you are!

Public Education; is this what we want?

Home Sweet Home

Had my own holidays which lasted for 3 days.

I didn't touch any work.

But I brought back a luggage of support and encouragement from my family.

And also confidence.

Indeed, the days were worth an escape.

Michelle cooked mashed potato and I commented a lot.

Andrew was busy with the two new bought tortoises. And I'm still a fierce sister to him.

Father is reading Bible everyday.

Mother is on a diet schedule.

Granny and Grandpa still love me like they were.

Everything is just fine. =)

No Subject

When is the most enjoying moment of our lives?

Drinking your favourite coffee in a Canon mug while watching the sunset?

Getting every work done and have a walk in the park?

Kiss the one you love and he kiss you back?

I'm having my enjoying moment too. It is when every miracle happens to me. It is when I knew God is there every time. And it's beautiful.

I had blocked a friend of mine recently. I wasn't sure how I felt after doing it. It feels like one friendship ended and a meet of a special person seemed wasn't meaningful to me anymore.

She was right, I was lying.

I don't know what's wrong with me. And sometime it came to a moment where you know what is right and wrong but you can't make a line between them.

And then, lies within lies until I can't distinguish between them on my own.

I just felt like I acted like a fool around people and the most appropriate one would be, running away.

Sometimes, I even wonder myself, do I really look different or I struggle to be different because I think I am, from the start?

Haha.

Only God knows.