Who to be blamed?

I remembered an article wrote by Liu Yong, a Taiwan novelist who stayed in U.S with his family and his children were educated there. It was taken from the second book I read which written by him, named 'Rebellious Blood' when I was Form 2 and I read it over and over again until Form 4 when internet started to invade my life.

In short, Liu Yong is a writer and an artist. He could paint but I had never seen his paintings. The way he criticized the world with some humor elements made his writing attractive. But I disagreed the part where he doesn't believe in God. In fact, we became proud when we knew too many things which is actually little in God eyes.

I remembered he wrote a story. It was about a prostitute in UK who were humiliated with the description of her customers as 'big boos with small brain'. Eventually she defensed herself by entering a quiz and managed to get number one where she defeated students from Cambridge, Oxford and Stanford. But, she went back to be prostitute, a famous one and her business grew.

The reason she chose to be a hooker was not known. But she had a bad family background, that was the fact. Liu Yong continued to claim, he felt comforted to see his daughter practicing piano at home. He wondered what would happen to her daughter if he didn't become a good father.

And we had our Individual Oral Presentation today. A kinda compulsory test for the English class. Pn.T dropped a very tough topic, 'Infamous person through history'.

I did Hirohito.

But I was inspired to write when majority picked the serial killer as the subject.

Because there is one similar characteristic shared by most of the serial killers or so-called psychopaths, they were all from a sad family background.

They had drunken fathers or perhaps early dying mothers, evil stepfathers or stepmothers.

Liu Yong once raised a question which I point out the gist here.

'Who to be blamed when we had all those social problems causing people? Should we blame them or people who moulded them?'

Like a friend said during the IOP, it's hard to be normal when he had such father.

If we compare, a father who take parenting lesson long before the baby is born and another father who never wish to have a baby when he needed his time for gamble?

We would feel very anxious for the second baby.

As what shown on Desperate Housewife a month ago, [I watched it during convo break], the guy who hit Julie was actually having a drunken mother and a very disturbed childhood and adolescence. His mother was blaming his birth which caused her to end her social life earlier.

So, ultimately, he killed his mother as she pushed him too much by insulting him publicly and not recognized his artistic talent. But I didn't continue watching.

All I know, when we grabbed our fists seeing this kind of bad parents, did we ever notice our role?

There's a common phenomenon where people love assaulting those who looked weird and socially isolated, especially in group. The least they could have done, would be laughing at them and giving them bad nicknames. This is not hard to be found in any school. Cuz these bullies felt offended when weird people, geeks appear in their sight.

They couldn't understand why these people couldn't just act as normal as themselves cuz they never know the depression that hid inside one's heart that he/she had to endure each day.

We are coming from healthy family. Then, we wish to worsen the condition of others. We never knew we are the major factor which develop all those serial killer. You don't even know if this morning your weirdo classmate is beaten by his drunken father again.

Perhaps you never offend any person who looked weird, but we never care for people. We shake head when we see all those murder cases and we sympathize the victims. But at the very initial phase, we never go and ask, or give a pat on the shoulder when we see a down person, always walks lonely who later slowly begins his psychotic acts. It is the environment around him and us who build this up. We are the advocators, but in the exactly opposite way!!!

And it's true, this is a cold world.

Teachers were the worst. Somehow I wished, people became teacher for they really want to do something for the future generations. While canning all those weak and rebellious students, they forget to help them out instead, by finding out their talents. The main purpose to educate is not there, but achieving good grade is everything.

You would say it's rather dangerous to approach these mentally unstable people personally.

Well, often they are fine at the beginning.

You know what, those low competency children weren't really cannot compete. It's just that their confidence is taken away by misery.

Adult can really encourage them by placing them at important position, giving them chance to learn and at the same time felt respected by the society.

It's life, but not always a competition. I see some of the people who stress too much on win and lose, ruin the whole game. Outstanding children were often chosen. We forgot that it's teamwork.

In Christian, we believe it's satanic work. People hear sound, see things, being given order to kill......these are all driven by demon. And if a family is to be broken down or having mentally ill members, it should be a curse.

But, God can change that.

But how would these people get comfort or know about God when we, the Christians never give a damn? When we never care for the needy?

I'm constantly reminding myself for that.

It's not that you see the chance to spread gospel and being so excited to read him/her the whole Bible.

But you should be a good listener and while giving advice, show God's love to a person.

Don't feel that the world is covered by dark, but instead seeking light from God.

Differentiation [not math]

I always wanted JPA as I need money to spend. I even planned for it. I'm thinking that after getting the money, I'll get myself an android, my sister a laptop and perhaps Astro that showed NG, DC for my sister and the Hokkien channel for my father. Father loves Hokkien drama. Then the rest of the money would be kept by mother. I planned that.

Would it be enough?

I never want to think about it.

However, I didn't apply JPA. Father wished to sponsor me for some reasons. And I guessed that all my plans would be canceled, not because that he didn't approve what would I do with the fund, but this time I'm getting FAMA, so I would like to use it wisely as I know I'm depriving family sources.

*FAMA=Father and Mother scholarship

It's just that Chinese made a phrase, '身不由己', meaning environment is taking over us.

This is why just now, when I asked again to myself why would I want to be a doctor, I'm shocked that the answer is so against the principles I'm holding steadfastly.

Maybe people will suggest me, when seeing me suffering now with all those medical terms that I don't even hear some of those, to let go the course and no grudges for doing things.

But amazingly, that mentality would never come to me, I can assure. As I always knew that God is with me. Taking from a forwarded email from a friend, 'When GOD solves your problems, you have faith in HIS abilities;
when GOD doesn't solve your problems HE has faith in your abilities.'

That's just made me feel better!

Everything look tough. I'm just an ex-matric-physical student who is currently challenging myself to be collegue of STPM, A-Level and Matric Bio students who know what is TCA.

But I continue after I remind myself, 'God is with you.'

If I failed, there must be a reason. But the climax is not here, it's at the part where I'm willing to repeat the year and continue without feeling ashamed but instead knowing that I've tried my best.

And back to the question I posted to myself,

my answer were just, I want to be a doctor, I want to have money, I want to buy a house for my family, a farm, a few sheep and cows where my brothers could ride freely on the field and I want to give them the best of everything I can.

Then, I want to care for the poor, the widow and the orphan, that's what God wants.

But you see that I made the family first.

I suppose, it's also a reminder to some of you, don't make a principle a deadlock, like one of my friend said in his blog.

Instead, enjoy life. Cuz I have no affordability to think for the world first when the people I need to care for the most were just right in front of me.

Like if you ask me, why are you so happy to go to church?

I can't just merely answer that I enjoy so much the praise and worship for God. And my principle to be happy worshiping God brought me there. No. Definitely no.

I would like to tell, it's the day when I get to have good meal when I go to church cuz it's near to KB mall.

It's true.

But the most important part would be, I felt peace inside the House of Lord. When, everything that upset me in the whole week were thrown away. That's come with my enjoying of the worshiping.

Principle is not involved.

And that would be a new me? A time when this undifferentiated side differentiate?

Other people?

People are confused on street, or like everywhere.

Let say, if you try to hide some knowledge from your colleagues, so that you feel better than them. You think it helps your confidence and secures you. But at first, you wouldn't plan some concept in your mind, 'Other people are doing that too, why can't I?', so that there's no guilt for you to show a little selfishness, doing something exactly just for yourSELF.

Don't you think while other people doing that, I mean, being selfishy, they are having the same thought like you in their minds too? They would also think, 'Why can't I? Other people are doing that too.'

If everyone were to think other people are doing that, who exactly are 'the other people?' Ask yourself, would they just appear to be a projection of your subconscious?

If there are really 'other people' who start the whole things first, you just tend to follow the trend, then who would be those who start the whole things out? Or it just the little evil inside you give you the key for the door of sin?

Main point: Can we make a difference?

Mother gave me some really supportive words that I would like to share here.

She said, 'Things God ask us to do sometimes confused you cuz it seems to be just the opposite of how the world goes around. God said, 'If someone strikes you on one cheek, turn to him the other also.' So that he can strike my another cheek? And God even said, 'If someone takes your cloak, do not stop him from taking your tunic. Give to everyone who asks you, and if anyone takes what belongs to you, do not demand it back. Do to others as you would have them do to you.'

She said,'You would wonder. What is this? How could I do that? Other people don't do that. They punch their enemies back, if it happens to be them being punched. But it ends up, what He told us to do are the Truth and the right things we had done.'

You might say, 'It's hard. We can't change the world.'

But God can make the difference.

I still remember a Pastor said in the last two Christian Fellowship, 'Seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness.'

I see that some people still haven't really understand the world had be fallen to two part, real world and the spiritual world, Christians are unaware of that. Often we love to stroll along the line between the light side and the dark side and sometimes closing an eye when we curi-curi step one foot to the dark side.

Furthermore, I hated to hear people say, 'This is the reality.' I often questioned, 'Who are you to define reality?' Are you the 'other people' whom other people had been following?

I know, it had been confusing.

So, God has made the simplest way for us. Why not follow it?

By the way, remember to smile always.

Kerana Nila Sebelanga

Let's take a review on a portion of USM APEX medical student because I felt like I had the worst ever English class in my whole life this morning.

It might sound boring that we were writing reports today, but in groups. Pn.T handed us some newspaper like The Star and New Strait Times to grab some material from it. I was excited for it when it came to having to touch the issue on the outside world.

This is all about my group member. One was late. So, two of them first chosen the UPSR and PMR topics when I had to remind them to pick something more interesting like 'Country Bleeding Sand'.

It was a topic about illegal sand mining in Malaysia and the article was reporting how those criminals worked things out and at the same time left damage to our country. They agreed with what I suggested by saying 'cincai la...' which means 'whatever'.

I was kinda offended with that when I saw the irresponsible attitude made by one member.

In short, the article is all about people using bribes, sexual favors and threat with gun to make their smuggling of sand outside a success despite ban from government on export of commodity. There are effects like the damage to animal habitat, deforestation, soil erosion and even sand storm when there are defects on mining process, maklumlah they are illegal.

I was the one who hold the pen and wrote but I didn't really get to decide what to be written down.

We skipped some frustrated part and just talked about the recommendations part. In a report, we actually need to recommend some solutions for the problem we issued.

Member A and B were discussing about it. And this is what they get.

Imposed heavier fine. To who? By who? I was wondering. Of course, expectantly it's by the authorities to those who committed it. But hey bro, now the problem is, authority is receiving bribes and they are closing an eye for what had happened.

And do you know what they reply me? Member A said, 'So, impose heavier fine on those who accept bribes lor.' Pheww...I don't think things always work by just imposing fine, fine, fine!

Then while I was asking member B for solution, he said, 'I think the major problem now is that Malaysian always talk talk talk only but they don't talk action. So, I think they should take action.' [Owh, that's the solution?] I think you are doing the same as what you said, talk, talk and talk.

Imagine, when we tried to work out the report, Member A just sat there, playing with his whatever expensive model cellphone and then read his own newspaper. One word, disrespect.

And Member C taught me a new word today, detrimental. I appreciated that. But when I asked her about the effects of the illegal sand mining, all she could say were just 'detrimental effect'. But she hardly could explain or to elaborate what was on the newspaper.

You know what, the problems are here. Learning language is different. It doesn't mean that you are superior when you know more vocab or spell something better than me. It's flexible and unpredictable. There are might be some words which I know, but you don't know.

What I try to stress on is, language comes with the origin speaker's culture. Like when you speak English, you should at the same time, possess the white culture where they respect people and they have amazing thinking skill on how to tackle a problem and solve it.

But this is lacking in here when people speak English to uplift their status and at the same time, they give up their mother language to adopt the former one.

That is not how the world goes around.

I didn't mean it for everyone. In fact, there are few students who are in the same English class did amazingly great and their desire to pursue knowledge stunned me.

And a friend of mine, Daniel who is also a bright student that currently takes law can be very critical when it comes to Malaysian issues, but indeed truthful.

Meanwhile, a website called loyarburok had opened my door to more wonderful Malaysian students.

So, Malaysia is actually boleh!!! It's just kerana nila sebelanga when majority of us care more about our own benefits.

One word, lame.

I'm not a coward or whatsoever to write it here instead of just telling them how I feel because I don't like to judge them to their faces, possibly, harmony always preserved.

Next post would be Ken Watanabe who ignited my interest again on filming by listening to his talk in CNN today.

God is good.

attempt to call Mom and say, 'I love you, God loves you too.'

Cuz this is the joy I have everyday when I humble myself and obey Him.

God is good.

what happen?

when we can dream, dream big.

and it's good that we work hard to work it out.

the joy that came when you get to harvest is enormous and satisfaction of you have trying your best is substantial.

and that's life.

except when we have forgotten how to enjoy the journey.

we forgot the purpose of our ambition at the very first.

we forgot that life contains other people.

and it's sad that at the end, you found no one to share your victory.

you found no one to be happy with your success.

and time is invested on merely what to be achieved.

yet the joy is not there.

and when all knowledge is to be filled,

and when you get to know everything on Earth,

the only word that gets to your heart is just 'meaningless'.

because, love, hope, faith and care were exchanged when you made your strategy.

memory is filled with notes but no happy moment.

ears are to listen to the lecture but not to a depressed friend.

eyes are to see what to be tested during exam but not what outside of it.

mouth is to murmur what you try to remember but not to voice out what you try to apply.

and it's horrible when you look back.

coming out of the shade: first do what I can

I was so excited about booking the Air Asia flight for my final break coming home to Penang, excluding how I really get back home later, the cost for flying from KB to KL then to Penang were just RM20. I couldn't help myself but yelled that, 'Yea, finally I can fly.' My friend gave me a stunning look as if she was tired by the domestic flights she had been experienced all these while.

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I moved!! Officially count on tomorrow, I supposed. I'm at DM3, 217 now, feel free to find me and laugh together.

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I'm involved in the Decor and I adopted some values from the meeting afterward but not just team work and punctuality that matter!!

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I knew the true meaning of Christian and I'm still growing up. Finally I know why I'm here.

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My friend reaction towards my over reaction on flights actually got me into a flicker of idea about life. Somehow, we couldn't feel a joy in someone who is enjoying something we probably is deserving and taking granted for it. She might feel that flying is nothing, she can just as many times as she want. She is in fact bored of it. But I felt so happy that for the first time I can be on the sky, watching Malaysia. Indeed for 18 years of my life, I had never tried what Wright Brothers wished to for me.

It made me thought of other people. I'm excited for the coming up flight but what about them? Do they happy if they are to be given a seat? Or they prefer us to give them food? I mean, those from the undeveloped country, the victims of poverty and starvation. What about those who need to go to school? Would it be that their joy will simply be triggered by just giving them a pencil rather than a flight?

I felt falling deep of a ocean. A place where it is too deep that I never thought I could reach out to it. I felt the true meaning of Christian. I was very radical before. I always hoped for the day of Salvation, but I never thought of others whom God loves too. I rejected modern music, Chinese culture as soon as I became a Christian. But God doesn't want this. All He wants is that, I love my neighbor as myself.

Like what Lenka sang, 'He's gonna play a part' in 'Trouble is a friend'. If we viewed trouble as a friend, actually we can stop or fix it faster if we felt that it's another platform for us to gain experience on this and know more of the sequence of world.

I don't want to lock myself in a box anymore. The box is too dark, deep and heavy. I felt alone inside there.

And this is why I moved out from my previous room cuz I'm seeking for something called respect. And I made the tolerance step for it. [Would be more detail in my next post]

And today's evening, I went for the Decor meeting. We formed a team that is going to decorate the backdrop for the Moon Cake Festival event later on. I felt that when there's a round table, when people sit in one group for discussion, respect is important. And my team leader really did that. He was actually listened to everyone's idea. This is how we form a team, how we make the 'team work' strong. We felt respected and we respected each other.

Because of time, I can't say much.

I might be little but I can try to do the very best to stress the point that, we are all equal.

Human are all equal, this is what I want to conclude.

Equally sinned, but equally loved by God.

Romans 5:8, "But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us."

My goal for now, love children and never fail them. Will be coming out with more goals in consistent with what I can do!

Don't let it bring you down

It was my first time on stage. Up there, watching by friends, those who knew me to witness my voice. And I screwed it.

I was knowing it the moment I sang the chorus of 'You Raise Me Up'. I couldn't make it for the pitch and people were giving that disappointing look while I chose not to finish the song.

I can't say that I'm fine.

I was thinking of calling Mom, telling her I failed.

But after all, I didn't do it as I felt it's time for me to face things myself especially this experience that once hit me to the endless valley. I felt as if it's the end of the world when I passed over the mic and got back to my seat.

A moment where I failed on something I'm really confident with. I don't even give a damn when I was rejected for badminton, Frisbee or whatsoever. But failing this, even just before a few people whom of some I don't know, I felt like losing my soul.

Singing will never be taken place by other thing I cherish so much after praying.

Friends are caring. I know. But I don't want to hear anything like 'you can get over this' or 'everybody has his/her first time'......

I don't want to get over this, I want to get better on this!

I felt the presence of God.

And this is time for me to grow up, to accept the fact we fail but we should never be shy to stand up again.

Once, I was afraid...by the eyes of people.

But my friend reminded me, God is my greatest audience.

And I never felt so good. You know, being in Uni, at least they gave me a chance to try, rejecting me yet providing me a platform to improve.

Just the word 'strong', you know, there are not much people who could really posses it.

I admitted that, I'm upset.

But I'm willing to stand up again and be better. I never question about my inability in singing, it's just I'm improving.

I wanna be like Annie Lennox. I wanna sing and deliver people's message to the world through my voice. I wanna tell people what is happening and why they are so important to know about it. I wanna persuade people to do something about it, calling them for support.

Like what Annie Lennox said on BBC which I cherished very much, here's the gist, 'I'm very low, but I'm having all these kinds of rights, food, national health which other people cannot have. My education made a platform for me to help other people.'

Then it's true, like what she said,' The amount of money that would need to be invested to save people's lives on a massive scale isn't that much'.

'We are not going to say we can make poverty a history in long term, but at least we contribute something.'

I would never give up my ambition nor my thoughts would be monitored by the world's fear.

People around me were fear and wouldn't dare exactly doing something. And I had to said, 'They are stuck by fact, by presenting fact but not doing anything for it.'

This is the problem of Malaysia. We don't implement what we preach.

We rather be good on the stage and when we came down from it, we took off the burdening cloak. The motivation we were delivering were gone with us.

People know a lot of things and I actually appreciate very much that we have so many best quality of university students. But none of them who I regarded as very excellent colleagues make use of their knowledge that empower them.

I even see people telling me not to deliberately asking for wax paper for catering food instead of polystyrene. They claimed that these give minor effects and in fact no influence to the go-green effort.

I see them having the hunger to do something big. Probably something superb that can recover the world within a short time. But remember that, we took many years to destroy the Mother Earth. And we can't just take a few seconds to fix everything.

That we should have consider too, daily basis, weekly basis, monthly basis and years'.

There are people outside who don't worry about how many lecture notes they had finished but the ability if they could have their next meal or their dying son with born HIV.

Don't keep saying, 'You'll never know' but get to know this.

At the time, I just wanna say, it doesn't stop me from trying to do what I want even being stranded here, taking medical doctor. I knew God has His own work for me.

At last but not at least, 'Taking medic doesn't mean we have to be doctor, we can be contributor of the world.'

Take note that, I'm not kidding on those things.







It doesn't matter if the stream is narrow or wide. Your goal may be attainable next week or seem years beyond the horizon. There is always that first stepping-stone to start you on the journey.

Challenging a problem begins with embracing it rather than resisting it. Accepting the truth about what is so places us in a position to learn and move forward.

-both by Steve Brunkhorst

briefly stated

I saw this on my friend's facebook profile about herself, 'I abhor not being myself.'

And I'm more than agreeing what she said.

We should be who we are but not, who we should be for the others.

And this is who I am.

I'm not good at badminton but it's the only sport I can play. I like football only when people allow me to kick it. I like cricket just because I feel it somehow relates to softball, the only game I love. [People in India hang themselves when they lose in cricket, so it's kinda grisly.] I once hope I can race on bike, especially the thrilling one where we have to cross mud.

I'm not as polite as you see. I'm rude and rebellious at home whenever parents opinions are incongruent with mine. I've just noticed that the gap between us is getting bigger and eventually all I can do is just respecting them, but not following them.

I'm a very confident person but I never like to show it in front of people.

I'm very quiet and love to spend time with myself when the topic does not meet my interest. Otherwise, you would see the side of me who talk more than you can imagine.

No one is my enemy. I treat everyone as friend. It just that, I knew we don't have much to talk before I even step in your shoes.

In my perception, friends are made to leave a footprint in our life. But that footprint is not necessary made from talking and spending night together on a trip. Sometimes, you've become friend inside my heart even tough we never talk with each other for more than one sentence.

I want to be a doctor but my ambition is a film director.

I love art but I don't like it when people use it as an excuse for insanity, lust and obscenity.

I might look unpredictable, giving people feeling of insecure but that's not me.

Things I enjoyed the most in the world is singing, blogging and movie. I'm a TV fanatic and I won't know when people talk to me while I'm watching TV or thinking. I can't be drifted from this dreaded hobby.

I'm not sporty but I think passive fits in very well.

I have my very own way of thinking and every second is my rush hour. Whenever one's principle crashes mine, he/she will stay as my friend but never best friend. My time can't afford walking relaxingly with one, and chatting about something I disagree very much.

Don't just give me an opportunity when you feel like to. I'm not a beggar who doesn't has a choice.

I love reading but not for English novels. Their literature stunned me and their storyline impressed me but my patience can't fight with the pages.

I love reading and I think the only author that can make me finished his book is Jin Yong.

I like English very much and I learn them for interest but this interest never beat the one I have for Chinese.

There are things we can do and can't do. In case you understand, 'can do and can't do' are referring to the same matter.

I'm a Christian, hope you know that. Unaware, I don't decide things for myself anymore. Often things you see I'm doing, they are all God's decisions.

Light it up BLUE

2 days ago, while waiting for bus ride home, I ran into a senior who took speech pathology at my campus. It was embarrassing that I knew absolutely nothing about it, I even related it with autopsy for once as people kept emphasizing the 'pathology' whenever it was mentioned.

For your information, the subject is named 'speech therapy' in UK.

Well, it's a field that concerns about those patients who have difficulties to speak. This is serious, not something you can just solve by patting on someone's shoulder.

Everyday we talk, in a way, a hope and a desire to establish a relationship that benefits, that makes you feel good when you defeat loneliness with it. When we talked, within seconds, audiences grasped what it is about you and you should be prepared for presenting yourself. We sweat our palms, our heart almost jump out from chest and we struggle hard to think how to impress people by our talk, the talk that label ourselves and help people to measure us.

And imagine, some of us are worrying how to open out their mouths and make a sound.

This is an issue that requires attention.

The future generation especially these children, who're having autism or fear to talk to people are shockingly a building up statistic.

I don't know how bad it hits Malaysia, but I see kids with it. If we narrow down to just focus on autism, it could be worse if more and more children refused to speak and couldn't go to school.

This has come to impacts on the education and next would be the generation that should be leading the country.

Amusingly, I only found this on the website when it was held 4 months ago, back in New York when at the same time I was celebrating April Fools' Day by pulling a prank on friends in the Matriculation.

It's called Light It Up Blue.

Sadly, I see nothing similar with it, here.

It's actually an awareness campaign about the autism, an disorder which people have to know what is it.

On the night of April 1, prominent buildings across North America and the world — including the Empire State Building in New York City and the CN Tower in Toronto, Canada — were lit up blue to raise awareness for autism and to commemorate World Autism Awareness Day on Friday, April 2.

They were aiming to light the world blue all throughout April — city by city, town by town — by taking action to raise autism awareness in their communities.

What people can do during Light it up Blue?

• Wear your Autism Speaks puzzle piece pin every day throughout the month of April, and tell people about autism if they ask about it.
• Change your Facebook profile picture to the Light It Up Blue logo and tag at least 10 of your friends.
• Post on your blog about how you are “lighting it up blue” to raise autism awareness.
• Add the Light It Up Blue logo to your e-mail signature … and type your e-mails in blue!
• Wear blue clothing and ask your co-workers, schools and friends to wear blue too. Take pictures and add them to our Flickr gallery.
• Bake puzzle piece shaped cookies and frost them with blue icing, then bring them to your school, work or place of worship to raise autism awareness.

You'll feel there's nothing much people can do about it but for sure, it helps, at least letting some of the people heard of the word, 'autism' for their first time and then they will mention it many times later by involving themselves in the process of advocating.

I remembered a friend said, 'Knowledge is power, but action is ultimatum'. [Wow!]

It was a world event. I tried to bing about it in Malaysia, but I found nothing.

Fortunately, we got this EAP (Early Autism Project). But the saddest part is, they don't include adolescent, that undergoes hard phase. However, they have a very high goal that at least brings comfort to the parents. If we don't raise awareness high enough, many wouldn't even know what's wrong with their child. Mostly, the syndrome shows itself at the early of three. But parents were just trying to convince that their children were just being unique.

Often, this kind of thinking plants regret to themselves for getting the kid treatment late!

And the best therapy should be happened at the earliest stage of brain, whenever it is malleable.

I just wish, at the same time university students are given space to contribute too...for more events that we should concern about.

The idea is not there yet, maybe at least our first instinct tells us, we should do something.

Some of the steps in our lives might seem small and low, but it's actually telling other people to learn from you and it's important that we always learn from each other.

At least, you might be interested to find out more about autism after this.